So it's been a few weeks since the last article on this story, and I did say I would try to continue it sooner. But I don't think I'm going to, hence this update to inform anyone that cares of that fact.
I want to tell the story, as much for others to read as to sort out my own head. I think it would be good for me, to tell it and through that finally let go of her. And therein lies the problem, I don't want to let go. It's been four years and all I want is to be with her.
When I started this blog I didn't want to tell this story, it wasn't going to be about it at all. A big part of that decision was the thought that all I am is the leftovers of that relationship, and I need to prove to myself that I'm more then that. And I have this fear that should I finish the story I will then have no further reason to write about anything. Not terribly rational I know.
So the long and short of it is the story is on hold, indefinitly.