I'm an idiot. Been thinking for a while that I should make sure that's on record, so here it is. No particular reason this comes up now, since this is nothing new. But it can't hurt to state things for future reference, right? That is all, move along.

       So a few nights back we (being my family) somehow got into a conversation about the definition of the word 'homophobia'. Normal dinner topic I'm sure. What brings this up is that the definition appears to be the fear and discrimination of homosexuals. I thought that was rather odd so I looked it up.        According to the nice online dictionary that definition is correct. So logically, claustrophobia must be ...

       I (my self) is not the same as my body. Yet we are the same. My body takes care of itself, does all the little things I can't be bothered with. Keeps my heart pumping, lungs breathing, etc. Tells me when it wants food, sleep, whatever.        Sometimes it's not my body that is talking to me, but just a part of it. Like when my bladder tells me it is full and wants to be emptied. I don't have to listen to it, b...

       I'm Worthless        I figured it out (although I had some help, I'll admit it), I believe I'm worthless. Looking at it I think I've believed that for years, at least the last 16 which is as far back as my memory works with any reliability. And since actions are driven by belief, no wonder I do the things I do.        This explains so much. I believe I'm worthless, so I refuse ...

       I am an obsessive and addictive person. I think it's my personality mostly, as opposed to chemical imbalance type stuff. But that's besides the point.        The point is that I find myself easily obsessed with various things. Sometimes good things, sometimes bad, so I have to be careful with myself. Course everyone does, but that is also besides the point.        I don't gamb...

Back in the day there was a game company called PAS, it stood for Plain And Simple . They made a game called Maelstrom, good game too. You had to save the planet Harmony from the evil Syndicate and their plant soldiers. Can't say that I ever finished the game, couldn't get past Zarkhov's invasion. He would always destroy my fleet and then kill me. Or put better, my fleet would destroy itself, they just didn't like to fight. But that's another story... Not too long ago there was a mov...